This section is completely unedited and unrevised. It is simply a place where I wrote down my thoughts to get through sections on the site. So, if you think it's me rambling - you're not far off!
September 14, 2014
For a long time I argued with whether or not I should even like Xanxus. On one hand, he's a huge ass. He is, he's not just an antagonist, he's downright abusive. He's lacks any concern for his men. Here's the thing, he's confident, he has red eyes, black hair, and uses guns. (Shush, Mikari and Cherri, you both know I was doomed). His confidence is very intriguing to me. He's a spoiled brat too, and that's something I've always recognized. He genuinely believes that he's important and superior to everyone in the world. What makes me love him so much? Probably the basic look and his confidence. He has confidence in SPADES. I don't know. Isn't every girl allowed to fall for a bad boy? Xanxus is mine (shush, Rainey, I love Ryuji too). That's the thing about Badguys, they have confidence. And I like it. I've always wondered though, if that confidence was something always with him or if it came from living hte high life as a Vongola. I'm sure that if he were always confident that the Vongola life certainly made it easier to be more confident. He pretty much went from having nothing to having everything and so I can see how he might be inclined to believe that he deserves everything. Although, I can't say I necessarily agree with it. So, I used to be like "should I even like him?" and now I'm getting too old to care. I like Xanxus, I don't like the way he always behaves or the things he does. Although, I feel like I understand his reasoning. I certainly don't agree with his thought process or how he treats his men. Yet, I do find that it's always his confidence that I find the most charming. He's assured that what he's doing is right (even though we all know it's wrong). Hell, I'm half inclined to believe that if someone genuinely loved him he might be okay. But, in my defense, I'm an optimist and an idealist. I do get the idea that more than anything he hates lies and would be very hard of trusting in terms of relationships with people. I don't know that he idolized his father, but I do realize that he certainly had some respect for him and that he genuinely believed him for a long time. Even after everything, he still chooses to serve the ninth versus serving Tsuna - choosing the lesser of his two perceived evils.
September 15, 2014
As I read through the manga, I was so excited to see Xanxus in the Ten Years Later arc! He looked very cool and was just as BA as always. A huge plus for me was that he had matured enough that he could put aside his own frustrations to help the family. I thought that was aboslutely amazing. When the future arc was over, I was still happy that he outright refused to go tot he inheritance ceremony because Tsuna was there. After seeing him be more mature it was also refreshing to know that nothing about him had really changed. He hadn't suddenly started liking Tsuna. Nope, not Xanxus. Although he did acknowledge that Tsuna is what made the family strongest in the TYL arc, Xanxus still believes he is superior in many ways. I love that it stayed this way. When Mammon asked for assistance we all got hte reminder that Xanxus knows more than he lets on. Although, I've always gotten the idea that he entered the representative battle to beat Tsuna up again. I fully believe that he expected that the last two groups would be standing would be Tsuna's and the Varia. I think he will always be defiant to Tsuna. I feel like he will alway psuh buttons. Thankfully, Tsuna is graceful where Xanxus is not.
December 30, 2014
I am so happy to be working on this site again. I feel like I'm ramblign far more than before though. It's a shame since i've been through the anime and hte manga a couple of times. I feel like I should have a better hold of this stuff. Certainly more capable of summarizing too. I just need to type of the representative battle stuff. My basic idea is that "Oh ya, I'll join Mammon. I've been looking for a reason other than unbrideled rage to punch Sawada in the face." I can't fathom why XAnxus would ultimatley care about the battle, I don't think he's selfless enough to genuinely want to help Mammon. If he is, then he and Mammon have an understanding that goes way beyond by ability to grasp. That could be true. I do enjoy, however, that Xanxus serves as both an antagonist and protagonist in this arc, fulfilling both roles wonderfully. The thing that I enjoy the most is that his character has no changed at all! Still stubborn, still does what he wants. I want to highlight that stubborn streak and his frustrations with Tsuna, while also showing the growth he has had. I also have to figure out a way to rank Dino on scale of the Dream Team (no, that'll turn into a Dino ramble/rant). Want to highlight: Xanxus is still stubborn, childish, and proud. Can easily do since he wears those things like a badge. Also need to find images for the battle with Hibari to highlight Dino's brilliance and understanding of Xanxus. I'm curious what XAnxus hoped to accomplish in this battle. Despite all the trouble he caused he ultimately served a greater good.